🛌 Sleep & energy changed everything: How I stopped running on empty
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For most of my life, I believed my brain was the engine.
If I could just push harder, think sharper, plan better. I’d be okay.
And for a while, that strategy worked.
Until it didn’t.
I woke up in the middle of a burnout so deep, I couldn’t feel anything but noise.
Not just the noise around me also the noise inside me.
My body wasn’t just tired. It was starving.
For silence.
For stillness.
For sleep.
Inside my head: violent rage.
Everyone became a threat.
Everything became too much.
I wasn’t just running on empty. I was burning through the last drops of self-control.
⚡ The myth of mental overdrive
I was used to performing through exhaustion.
Like many high-intensity minds, I had trained myself to function in deficit:
- Poor-quality sleep, often less than 7 hours, with almost no deep sleep (far from the 2–2.5h I truly needed)
- Coffee or Coke to stay awake, sweets and fast food to suppress my body’s real signals
- Weekend crashes incl. intensive brain fog that felt more like collapses than rest
- Emotional numbness and a quiet refusal to spend energy on anything outside the bare minimum to survive in a toxic system
But here’s the truth:
Functioning is not the same as living.
You can drive a Ferrari with a leaking fuel tank but only for a while.
🧠Why my mind couldn’t heal without sleep
Burnout didn’t destroy me overnight.
It was corrosion: slow, invisible, cumulative.
And what I didn’t understand was this:
My mind couldn’t heal until my body stopped fighting for basic survival.
The moment I started tracking my sleep seriously and optimizing every single detail around sleep, everything shifted.
I wasn’t just tired.
I was systemically under-recovered.
I had stopped dreaming.
That meant my REM sleep had vanished and with it, my emotional regulation.
It wasn’t laziness. It wasn’t weakness.
It was a full-body emergency my brain had been overriding for years.
🧠From sleep-deprived to strategically restored
Here’s what began to change:
- I stopped using caffeine as a crutch
- I radically reduced tea, sweets, fast food, cigarettes, large portions of meals, alcohol and Red Bull like sodas
- I began listening to my body instead of analyzing it
- I felt tiredness in my eyelids
- I recognized how certain foods helped or harmed my recovery
- My cigarette cravings became signals: “Today was too much.”
- I took naps whenever my body asked for them, especially when the signals were clear (eye fatigue, mental noise, brain fog, feeling sick)
- I prioritized deep sleep over late-night scrolling, distractions, or self-sabotage
- I made non-sleep deep rest (NSDR) breathing exercise and naps part of my strategy, not a luxury
- Every time I woke up groggy, I did NSDR to reset my nervous system
And the biggest shift?
👉 My mind started working with my body, not against it.
My irritability vanished.
My patience grew beyond anything I’d ever experienced.
Childcare no longer pushed me to my limits. It became something I could hold.
Ideas began to return:
“What would please me today?”
“What could I create next?”
And, finally, I had the courage, clarity, and energy to say no, to set boundaries, end toxic dynamics incl. depleting relationships, and start building a sustainable life I could fully inhabit.
That is the mission of this space.
🔧 What helped me rebuild my sleep energy
These weren’t magic bullets, just small pivots with big impact:
- Magnesium glycinate before bed to promote deep sleep
- TEMPUR ergonomic pillow for the sleeping posture and elimination pain the neck
- Checking and optimizing conditions in my bedroom (humidity, light, CO2, temperature)
- Used aroma diffusor to promote winding-up
- Sleep tracking (Apple Watch + AutoSleep)
- Enough exercise during the day (>900 kCal) including high-intensity exercise
- Walk outside for min. 30 directly after waking up every day (to catch the sunlight)
- If I was angry just writing it down before going to bed or when I woke up with anger in my mind just damping it on the peace of paper
- Protecting my sleep time (using Downtime feature on my phone from 21:00 to 8:00 to fully protect my sleep and not being bothered by any messages and any notifications in this time)
- Cold showers (for dopamine but also to strengthen immune system so that the risk getting sick, which would negatively impact recovery, is reduced) and short yoga in the morning
- Same time going to bed every day (also in the weekend)
- No food after 20:00
- No water after 21:00 (to avoid waking to pee)
- No doomscrolling in bed, no procrastination traps
- Drawing, reading or art after 21:00 to slowly calm down for great sleep
- NSDR every day (20–80 min depending on my needs), especially after bad sleep or to boost nap recovery
- Evening baths with relaxation promoting salts
- Walking into green areas incl. breathing to calm down mind and to offer a rest for my eyes
- Little celebrations (e.g. managing 4 days full of childcare in the raw) like going to favourite restaurant with wonderful friend
- Treating deep sleep like sacred fuel
đź’¬ Final Thought
Burnout recovery didn’t begin with a breakthrough.
It began with a bedtime.
The day I stopped pretending I could outthink exhaustion
was the day I began to rediscover myself
one deep breath,
one restful night,
one quiet morning
at a time.
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We don’t push through exhaustion here. We learn to listen. To rest. To rebuild with intention.
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